― Maya Angelou
A couple of
days ago, as I enjoyed that strange half-awake meditative state of
"shavasana" in yoga class, I thought about the
"soundtrack" of my life. I am
not sure if it was the sounds of little girls enjoying a ballet class in
the other room or something else ... But
whatever triggered it, I thought, days come and go, years pass ... and I have
worried about so many things. And it occurred
to me: What do I want the soundtrack of
my life to be? Do I want it to be filled
with static -- angst, pettiness, ruminations of grudges, gossip, negative
thoughts? Or do I want the soundtrack to
reflect the intentional enjoyment of my life -- children's laughter, songs I enjoy, pleasant conversations, the sounds of
the ocean, birds chirping? We only have
so much bandwidth. How do I want to use
mine?
As I left the yoga class, I lowered my car window and listened to the sounds of the birds
that were there for me to hear. I also saw
a bright yellow butterfly fluttering dance-like along the trees by the side of
the road. And I thought, I want the
flitting butterfly to be part of my life.
I want to see the butterfly more.
I can easily fill my mind with worries of so many things, some real,
some possible, some imagined ... Or I
can fill my thoughts, my heart and my life with the enjoyment of abundant
blessings.
About a month
ago, I heard a Jason Mraz song, Living in
the Moment, that has profoundly impacted me. Part
of it goes like this:
I will not waste my days
Making up all kinds of ways
To worry about all the things
That will not happen to me
So I just let go of what I know I don't know
And I know I only do this by
Living in the moment
Living my life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
I got peace in my heart
Got peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going,
I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
I want to live
"easy and breezy." I am trying
to be kind to me.
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